Endless Possibilities…

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Photo: Tinker Nature Park, Henrietta NY

I’m at a point in my life where I realize possibilities are endless, but not quite sure which direction is for me.  I just fantasize for now.  I’m ready for something exciting, something new, a challenge that will push me to grow in ways I’ve never imagined.

I love teaching in the school I’m in, but need something more…I don’t feel as if I’m making enough of an impact.  Tomorrow starts a new semester and I have some ideas up my sleeve that I’m excited to try.  I’m looking to take my career to the next level, but haven’t found a position that is right for me yet.  I feel something great coming soon though.

Do I make a drastic change and move…as in out of state, or even out of the country?  I’m currently researching options, but until my divorce is final I’m stuck–I loathe feeling stuck…feeling as if someone else has control over my choices–especially such a sick, sick, evil, being!  Ok, I don’t want this to become a negative post—it will be honest though and lately I’ve been struggling with staying positive–in part because of the divorce hold up.

Do I make a drastic change and leave education all together?  No!  I love interacting with students too much for that!  Maybe step up my photography skills and open a studio?  I don’t know…for now I will continue to learn new techniques, practice, play, and have fun until I decide what comes next.

Do I want to marry again?  Have more children?  Mine are 19, 14, and 12…life has changed as they are older and independent…I have more freedom…they don’t need me as much.  It is sort of depressing at times to think about.  My babies are no longer babies.  Why does God put so much on one person’s shoulders?  I guess I shouldn’t complain because my children are healthy–some people are dealing with much more than I am.

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Now that my children are a bit older I have plenty of time to work out at the gym.  I’ve been consistent in going and have a routine, but I do need to push myself more there too.  I work out in my comfort zone, using the machines I know, but I need to venture out in that area where the weights are.  I’m a confident woman, but for some reason I’m scared to step out of my bubble and into the weight area of the gym.  What if I don’t know how to use a machine?  I’m not a fan of asking for help…especially from men!  What if I ask for help, but nobody can hear me (darn earbuds)? What if I look like a rookie?  Wait…I am a rookie!  Everyone is looking at me!  No…nobody is looking at you!  These pants are a bit tight and my butt is toning up…maybe they are looking!  Stop Crystal..They are watching the TV shows up above! Uggg…maybe tomorrow I will dip my toes into the weight area…or maybe I’ll jump in canon ball style like this guy did!

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Comment:  Do you work out at the gym?  Have you had these thoughts?  Any advice for me to overcome my fear?

Crystal
 

 

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Crystaleyes20

I’m a mother of three beautiful children who have given me the strength in life to be determined in reaching my goals. I am a teacher certified in English and Special Education and truly enjoy going to work every day. I recently completed my requirements to become certified in school district leadership to make an impact on a much larger scale. I have had my fair share of blood, sweat, and tears, but the entire journey has made me grateful and appreciative of all that I have. One strategy I found helpful was to find something every day to be thankful for---focus on the positives in life! My goal with this blog is to do just that---focus on those “little” moments with the hope to inspire others.

8 thoughts on “Endless Possibilities…”

  1. First, let me say that I enjoy reading your blogs. I’m glad that you and the kids are well and that you are doing great things! I always knew you had it in you to make a difference and the world is better for it.

    In response to your latest blog, research, research, research. Get a look at the machines you want to try, maybe even take a pic, and look up how to use them online before you try them in the gym. Depending on the manufacturer, I may be able to answer some questions as well.

    As for the rest, I struggle with where to go/what to add to my life too, I think most people do, so you’re not alone. I find that if I can clear out some of the day to day static of life and listen to my heart/ the universe/ whatever you want to call it, it helps me identify a path.

    I hope this helps. It’s really great to “hear” you again!

    Chris

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    1. Awww..thank you Chris! You’ve always encouraged me with anything I’ve done! I’m glad you are enjoying the blog…I’m fumbling around with it at the moment until I figure things out and I feel at times I ramble and switch topics..haha! I chickened out at the gym today, but tomorrow is a new day…it was really busy today though and I just couldn’t when it’s that busy. Thanks again for reading and the kind words.
      Crystal

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  2. People do crazy things are the gym! I think he is trying to strengthen his neck but what the heck buddy!! So strange! We all struggle but it makes us human. I enjoy reading your posts. I hope you stay for awhile. 🙂

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  3. Sometimes, the easiest way to break out of your comfort zone at the gym is to take a class at the gym with other folks. Amazingly, these can lead to new friendships, new passions and new confidence. I have found that the hardest part is signing up and showing up

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